A writing from March of 2014:
Something about myself...I always knew I could love hard, but after the last time I didn't think I would ever want to again. But then I found something! Someone that I wouldn't mind doing it again for or with. Love!, I found exactly that. Real love. And I don't mind doing or going through it again. I don't know... there is something special about feeling like you could do something you told yourself you’d never do again. Or you thought you would never be able to do.
Just to know it's safe enough to try it again after it hurt so bad the first time around. This thing I found, this love...Him. He’s my escape from the world around me. The good when everything looks bad. He is my happy. Another reason to smile when I wake up. Another reason to thank God. HIM. He is what feels like to me; the only thing I need. I have a best friend in Him. My all in one. My happiness, my freedom. My faith is better and at its highest potential with Him. Love. He does that to me somehow. He somehow is able to pull my strengths to surface, and making all of my weaknesses disappear. He makes me feel able, and big. Something like the best. Better than the best, the best of the best, then even better than that. His feelings for me makes me feel he has captured the heart of the illest, dopest, most beautiful, strongest, most well-rounded women that not another woman has anything on. My heart.
He believes I’m great, so me too. Even greater than I thought. Love, He makes me feel feelings I have never felt or thought I would never feel. Rare feelings. He substitutes all of my situations, problems, and flaws with greatness and purpose. Purposefully, He is life. He is light in a world of darkness. Him and how he makes me feel is how life should be everyday of the week, every month, all year round. He is like perfect weather. He makes living possible. I mean I know how to live without...I've done that before I knew him, but now that I know, I don't want to go back to a "normal life." Especially knowing that a better life exists and is available to me. I don't need it, but I want it. I want to wake up to my happy every morning. I want to love hard. I want to risk it all. I want to have one, a one and only. I want Him, Love. And love is all I ever wanted. And this is love. A love I will not let go. A love that will never let go of me.
With Love. God is Love.